Friday, March 20, 2009

After a long silence...

Blogosphere smells good! *smile widely*

Suddenly I miss blogging. Suddenly I miss throwing out mt thoughts on this little corner. Please don't blame me for the long silence. I did not blog because i did not have anything to blog. Can say I stopped thinking and live my normally with lectures, tutorials and labs. Don't forget I am a human too! I have private life you know~ ;-)

Praise to God, I am now studying in Monash University Sunway Campus.

"Amin, I thought you are somewhere in New Zealand now. What happened???"
*smile*
He knows what's best. I did not pass the cut-off points given by the Petronas, lead to change of status from oversea sponsored student to local sponsored student. I felt low, down and embarrassed. I did not have courage to look at my family's faces. I did not have guts to meet my friends. I did not have balls to look into the mirror.

What brings me up?
Those are things brings me up from falling.

1. Allah knows what's best for me.
I thought studying abroad would be the best resolution. I would have new experience dealing with new people. I would be more independent. I would have new environment. I would be more mature. I would have better place for studying.
And I think I got it right here in Malaysia. I have international surroundings too! My housemates are all foreigners, making me the only local guy in this house. In my lectures only have got 6 malays - 3 guys and 3 girls. I have good lecturers and equipments. Thank You Allah. You know what's best for me.

2. Allah does not test his slave with unfaceable problem.
I'm lying if I say it's not hurt at all. Not going abroad is a big failure. I was depressed with smile, pretend as if i was fine and hypocritly laugh when tears drop in heart.
Then I realised, I am not grateful for what I have now. At least I have a place to study, with allowance and fees paid. At least I still have big dreams, which are destinations i am aiming for. At least I have Mak, Ayah, Kakak-kakak, her and friends who are always by my side. I should be HIs grateful slave, facing problems with 'kesyukuran' and pray hard to Him.

There are more reasons for me to still standing and moving forward. However, I should not deny that I am still in recovery phase.

"Ya Allah, give me guidance and strength..."

27 comments:

paqin said...

heyy amin,finally ure back!.hehe.i respect ur strength.its ok,no matter whre we are,we can succeed too.when one door shuts,open another tau!.fyi,my hsemates now are foreigners jgak.originally frum china dowww,jgn maen2.i tak phm ape deorg ckp pun.plg slalu pun wish good morning n good night je.haha.dun be like me plak eh.mix wit them,ur hsemates i mean.xkan mine pulak kann!!.hahaha.andddddddddd,dkat gile monash dgn taylors.thot u kat utp tau!.xpe2,nnt if i gy jumpe aty bleyh visit u skali.haha.kill 2 birds wit one stone la kan.wtv it is,pray hard.all the best for ur future ok.always stand by His side!tcare dude~

fiqss said...

ur 2 reasons say it all :)

all the best amien =)

@m|eN said...

paqin,
my housemates are sri lankans and indians from india. n yesterday i was forced by the sri lankans to finish 2 ketul kfc's chickens. dah la i was not in a good mood. n i got bahagian dada. banyak isi!!! haha~
but still bersyukur ;-)
yea, pay me a visit. then i'll pay u a treat. good luck for final paqin!!!

..................

Fiqs,
thank you. all d best to u too!!!

Anwari Ashraf said...

when ur abroad, and see how some overseas scholars (gov/petronas/mara/pnb dan bagai) are. u'd prefer to not be one of them.

Ibnu Ahmad Zhaki said...

Amin,

Insya ALLAH, Dia sediakan yang terbaik buat anta. Segarkan semangat kita, kerana ALLAH inginkan kita berjaya dengan sebenar-benarnya, ya'ni mendapat redha-Nya. Siapa tahu yang benda tidak baik akan berlaku sekiranya benda yang tidak diizinkan ALLAH itu kita dapat?

Apa-apa pun, insya ALLAH kita pelihara ukhuwwah ini.

Senyum....

=) ^_^

ariffdude said...

Well u know shit happens. But nothing happens without a reason. I know how u feel coz the exact same thing happened to me. But hell, add me up.

one_munawwarah said...

glad that u're back.

may Allah gives you the best through out your journey.

sometimes i wonder, after all HE had given us, did we try our best to please THE ONE who gave the very best gift in our life. or we keep doing things that drift us away and away from HIS blessing.

it's either be grateful or die in disgrace.

take care

Averlance Lighthawk said...

Glad you're back man...

Wish you the best...

emiranuar said...

Well I know what you are going through and you know that I know. Jiwang bastard. haha.

Lepak je,and it heals with time. Maybe takleh lepak, but it is natural to feel what you are feeling now.

Get busy and start thinking about changing our society and the world. You'll be fine.

And most importantly, mcm kau ckp, takda ujian takleh handle.

Aku SETUJU ngan WARI.

Ahmad Syafiq said...

Wah, Amin lama je senyap dari dunia blogging. Huahuahuahua. Welcome back to the blogging world.

AHMAD IKHSAN ABD AZIZ said...

oiyt..aku pn da gak lame nyepi...
hue3..

no need to be somehow merendah diri la bro..haiyo..sjak bile KP aku nie pandai rendah2 diri nie...ish3..da la ko tu tinggi..xyah le nk rendah2...(hambar...hoho)...

well...aku dok pandai sgt nk comfort2 nie..kalu ko plu comfort la..tp de je byk comfort ko kan..ckop ar kat skola dlu..kat krusi dpan admin blocks..haha..."500 ML of tears" kot..hik3..

--well..de org kate aku makin slim..ahahhaa....xle blah...--

nadia elaiza bt norisam said...

true..Allah will never tested u with something u cant overcome..^_^

we can plan what is best for us,but we can never beat Allah's plan ,coz for HE knows wat is the best for us..

good luck amien..

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